Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Day 62- God

I know what you might be thinking.  If I was going to mention God, maybe I should have done that on ohhhh, I don't know, day 1.  The truth is, each and every day I thank Him for the many blessings in my life, but today I am just so thankful that I want to do it "publicly" too (for you four-dare I say five?- faithful readers out there).

The day after my wedding, as we were driving to the airport, I had a good, joyful cry.  I was completely overwhelmed with how incredibly thankful I am to be me, and it took 24 hours to really process the absolute peace and happiness I was feeling.  What a day I had!  What a wonderful family!  What amazing friends!  And the cake and the dancing and the singing and the flowers... and my husband.  The greatest feeling was knowing with absolute certainty that I had found my perfect match and that I was well on my way down the right path in life.

I've been happy since I was born on a sunshiney morning, but I have probably only had that kind of post- wedding powerful moment of extreme elation twice in my life.  The other one was today.

There was no life-altering earth-shattering moment.  Rather, I had a series of little moments today, moments I have been having every day since I started student teaching.  Students who had never talked in class before participated for the first time and had fun with my lesson.  Some kids from the seating chart class came to see me after school to hand in work (!), and they actually smiled and chatted with me in the process.  Maybe I'm doing better with them than I thought!  My supervisor came in to observe me and told me that during part of my lesson she was so pleased that she wanted to hug me.  She also told me it was a stellar lesson, and I could quote her on that.  Quoted.  These are such small things in the grand scheme of my life and my career, but this is a day I will never forget.

I think that today I may have transitioned from auditioning to be a teacher to actually becoming one.

I thought this feeling would come when I got my first teaching job or my first teaching paycheck, but those things aren't really what make a teacher.  As I drove to meet my husband for dinner tonight, I had the realization that I have finally found my calling.  This teaching thing is going to stick.  I am living God's plan for me every day now, and I will get these little rewarding moments for the rest of my life.  My heart was so full that it may have spilled out of my eyes a bit.  Each day I am growing closer and closer to the woman I was meant to be.  As my faith in God grows, so does my faith in myself.  I've had a lot of practice putting words together, but I just can't figure out how I can possibly describe this feeling.  I only hope that everyone is lucky enough to get it at least once in a lifetime, and you'll know what I mean.  I've been blessed enough to have it twice.

It's amazing what happens when you learn how to block out all the noise and just listen.

"For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper, not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. " Jeremiah 29:11

"This is the day that the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it." Psalm 118:24


Thank you, God, you make my every day.

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